after and begining....

This is 4th week in our new semester, alot of things happened to me in this new semester. I joined
AISEC club( the international Orgnization), emm....ya it's not easy, need go through many procese, but luckly i made it. and for that i wanna thx my dear menmen , she supported me whatever my decision is, i know cuz she trust me.
11th is men's 20 years bufday, we didt celebrate, cuz on that day shes sick, high fever, and weak. her mom suspect that she got H1N1, so i took her go sunway hospital. in fact, i dont scare, not at all. i was thinking if she realy got that disease, then i will more closer to her, but instead of abanden her, cuz she needs me. and somemore, if i meant to be dead, no boday can save me, die with her at least i wont be feel that lonely. After the blood test result showed men was just get normal cold. so will be ok soon.
we went to KL last 2 days, we bought some good things :) . finally i got my Aesop.. haha ~~~emmm. i will talk about those thing on next post.
i told men i will wake up 2molo morning 5am , and go jogging....i really wanna make my life better and better...also keep on posting more and more..

very long time no post my blog already, somehow there is some quilty deep inside me. .
just after my 3 weeks semester break. i did nothing during the holiday. Well, i had try, try to find the part-time job in stramyx, everything seem to be so hard, i did the job only half of the day then quit. the reason is they cheated us, as they told us we can get the payment of rm140 per day, but end up they say it;s rm50for male and rm80 for femal, of course i was angry so i quit it..... to be continue.......( 10amhave class)

begins

ive long time no post my blog already, cuz recently , i was really busy, says i'm buzy, maybe it just i'm lazy,, cuz i cant say that i have no time post my blog because i was moving my house; because i was doing my assignmnt; because my pc's network card was spoiled, i know that i couldt find thoes excues, cuz if i manage my time well , i would able to post my blog also , i would have enought time for study, i would have enough time to keep post my blog... one word!!!! because i'm lazy.. lox~ today is 8th of June, omg, i know final exam coming on this month 22th , but ,unfortunately, i have even touch any of the notes yet.. lolx ~~~ ppl always says that future holds on our own hands, it;s time i can only feel the weight of my future. XD
today me and menmen went to sunway, we wanted to watch movie there, but in the end we back to our house.( the new one ) cuz by the time we arrived there was 10.30pm around , but the cinema only got midnite show which almost all after 11.30 so if we bought the ticket , we have to wait aboout 1 hour. lolx ~what's for , all the shops closed already. the whole shop mall like a really "pyramid" the air full of silence and dead ....walalal~~mammy..!!! better back so!
ya ~~something makes menmen felt not good, the rubbish we throwed is back!!!!!!!! yeah ~~i didt type it wrongly, cuz someone get it back, now the possiblility shows only two persons will do that , one-----> fat maid ,, another one --------> black curly hair maid. cuz menmen saw the towel last time i used ( which i throwed already) was in her room... and the plastic bag also... omg ~!!!! cant believe what kind of sick person will be like that , dogging ppl's rubbish as looking for some kind of treasure. plz !! if it has value i wont throw alway la ~~~stupid maid !!! ( i angry , cuz i felt like someone who invades my privacy )
menmen said i should behave myself , cuz everytime after i shower i went out the bathroom only with a towel which cover my XX. and thats why they loooked at me and seem so interested.......for this , i can not speak anything, cuz speechless enough.. . anyway, i dont think i didt anything wrong, but ya ~i will take it seriously next time..
ya ~will post more next time , now menmen wait me to watch the movie using her pc.. "ink heart" k ~~~nitenite !

rewrite again.. wow !

Finally, i can online already, long long time no post my blog alredy, this is because my pc at home has no internet connection, i mention this because i want to show my anger, ya ~my selfish, stingy housemates la , mainly am talking about one only, cuz he knows that am moving out next month, so, he took out my internet connection on the modem.
But......! theres always some ppl who treats me good one, my an other housemate lo ~jeffery , who offer me the internet connection, cuz he will continue stay in here, so he can use the internet connection as well, he gave me his line, throught out from the window, where other ppl doset know about that. thx jeffrey....@@ omg ~~~hes blur blur infront of me now.
By the way, we have alots assignment to do , just finished one only....haiz ~~still left with bcb and qm. somemore ,final exam is coming on the way next month 28th , how ? how ? how ?
Heheheh~~am moving to the new place next month , hopefully wont fight with menmen , XD!
kk, need out drink something.

omg ~~leave for a while ,

Now me at cyber cafe, haiz ~~so sian , because my internet connection at home are not work now, for some specific reason , lolx i will i could share in here. Anyway, i may not able to post my blog now....until next month, cuz am going to move to the new place.. wow ~then i can continue post my blog. sorry my dear blog ~~can not take care of u in this 30days....but ya ~,the new room will bring me the new feelings and new everything. most inportant thing is , yaya ~about menmen....okay ~~leaving now , see ya

无眠的零晨

　又失眠了，不想打电话给men. 想着一些东西．人啊，有的时候你可能会觉得：朋友很多，那么多跟你握手的人，那么多与你吃饭的人，那么多一次又一次对着你微微一笑的人。到夜里时，你会发现朋友是不少：有利益交换的朋 友，大家你好我好都好；有学校的朋友，当你们未形成对抗之前的好搭档；有日日与你寒喧的朋友，却从不讲一句实质性话；有亲戚朋友，当你不借钱给他或借钱以 后催讨绝对要仇恨你的朋友。
解除孤独只能靠相知相爱的人，其余的人忧乱了孤独，反而使人更感孤独。这种通心的朋友，是一剂买不到的良药，能医治各种心理疾患。可能两个人相距万里， 心却近在咫尺；可能思想各成一体，但却气息相近；可能在一起沉默不语，却是彼此心心相印。在牵挂对方的同时自己成为一个牵挂；在想念对方时自己成为一 个怀念；在鼓励对方时自己成为一个鼓励。不庸俗不虚伪不做作，从对对方的尊重中获取尊重，从对对方的关爱中获得关爱。苦恼共担成为半个，欢乐因为共尝 而变成两个。这样的人生，虽苦犹甜，虽悲犹喜。
然而，更多的人的情感是绝境：有的人是不敢付出的；有的是不愿付出；有的人是缺少机会；有的人是不信任它；有的人是得到了然后缘尽散去；有的是得到它利用 它然后失去它；有的则根本没情感这一欲求。当然，更多的人是彼此得不到共鸣，因此在你最需要安慰的时候遭到沉默；在最需要鼓励的时候遭到冷漠；在最需要爱 的时候遭到拒绝。你或许还做过不少有益于人的事，可在你最需要帮助时，人们远离了你，因为你不能再为他们带去他们所需要的东西。这是人类最大悲哀。
　看过一本书上面说过：人的悲剧是理想在现实前的必然悲剧，人的痛苦是心灵面对肉体的必然痛苦，人的孤独是个体遥望宇宙人性的永恒孤独。但我仍穿行在狭长的思想 黑洞里，很想有一个光明的去处，让我这颗敏感的、哀怨的、脆弱的、孤独的灵魂不再怀疑，不再啰嗦，不再混饨，不复杂乃至不反应。
记得罗曼·罗兰说：看清了这个世界，而后热爱它。我该怎样地看得清，怎样地爱呢?　谁知道我心中的忧郁，正如一个颇晓刀路的屠户，将我慢慢地切割，撕裂，分解，并且那么冷静地，不依不挠地。我用血躯和心，一点一点地品味着，记录着，并沉沉地抓住命运，竭力地寻找要拔出来的路径。
感觉自己忧郁的快要出水了．还是什么都放开一边，我还有好多好多assignments. 睡觉吧．．．．．．

今天发生太多的事情，心里面像打翻了调味剂，五味杂成什么感觉都有。
下午去到了seremban, 朋友prinsess开的店吃饭，是huisan他们和她约好的，之前问了我们是不是要一起去，因为没有什么特别的节目我们就跟去了。
Deyang驾车，基本上35分钟左右的路程。第一次到seremban，感觉这里还不错，可能是因为时间已经是旁晚了吧。感觉自己不是很喜欢很晒的时候出去，可能是怕把自己晒黑了，还有我们人的头皮晒多了也会掉头发的哦，呵呵。一下子就到prinsess家开的店了， 名字叫“食家 ” 食客之家， 一听就觉得是让人来吃好料的地方， 不错的名字， 不知道味道怎么样？（来的路上，huisan他们一直讲什么烧包这些东西， 我也在路上看到了芙蓉烧包城， 呵呵~第一次知道，原来芙蓉就在seremban啊，可是听说好吃的烧包店很早就关店．哎～！还有人嫌赚钱太多的）
坐了下来，就点了几个菜，有鸡，咸蛋炒章鱼，咸蛋黄炒螃蟹，还有的我就不说了。感觉最好吃的就是螃蟹，呵呵。吃饭的时候来了一条母狗，觉得她很可爱，要是我那时候在吃饭，一定给她一只鸡腿，不懂为什么munnyee不喜欢她．其实流浪狗就像孤儿一样，需要我们关爱他们的．
回来的路上，感觉deyang驾的很快，好快就到家了．路上men说想上厕所，还好我们是自己驾车去，坐巴士的话就辛苦了哦．
回到家里，看到我的housemate家豪回来了，心里想说，明天开始又要上演抢车位的大战了．还好men帮他申请了一张sticker．
我想了好多今晚, 我认不住和men 谈了起来. 基本上是关于我明年要不要去澳洲的事情,虽然我之前决定不去了.但是有些事情让我后悔了.我忽然好像离开这里,要不是你的话, 我早就已经在澳洲了,你知道吗men? 可是我又说了一些让你觉得辛酸的话. 你问我, 可不可以不要每次都这样? 你知道吗?我不想的?谁不想和自己的女朋友好好的生活,开开心心的面对每一个新的一天的到来. 可是有些东西,它不能不让我们去牵挂, 去期盼.
最后我让你给我一个答案, 你给了我想要得到的那个.但是我同时也希望你能明白, 我们选择了就要走到底,多苦, 多累也不能放弃 . 就算是上刀山, 下油锅 ! 不能认输与妥协, 只能坚持. 我说得这么严重, 因为, 必定我们要战胜的不仅仅只是生活上的难题, 更难的是战胜自己!

saving myself ...saving my health

Last night, i went to cyber coffee to play dota with Nic, ya ~actually recently i got play tat game, just i got MH, lol, means i can see other ppls location in the map, so that they couldt gb me..lolx after that i back and try to get some sleep, then the problem comes, no matter how i wanna sleep, somehow i just cant get into the sleep...i felt hot , and swt..damn this weather.. how ppl can continue to live? Now is 1.30pm of next day, i just dont know how ive been going trought till now, but rite now i felt so much better, cuz ya ~i just took shower..
I found i loss a lot hair, i so worry about my hair, i used to be very '' hairy'' , what the problem cuz me loss my hair, i dont know, i use internet to search the reason, maybe i got the Androgenetic Alopecia. i realized maybe is because of my life style before, i used to wallow in clubbing, and i was smok in there and sometimes when i back to my house, i just slept str8ly, cuz i was too tired....omg ~~i cant believe that was my life, i almost screwed myself...
But now , i changed i didt go clubbing anymore , and i quit smoking. why my hair still loss...i think i seriouly need to go watch doctor. i dont wanna go see doctor when am getting bald, that will be too late!!! ya ~~i like to make different hair style, and i like my hair, am willing to give up the things to case hair loss , search from internet ( the sweet foods, spicy foods, eat too salty. and too oil and fried things, BBQ.) By the way, need relax , dont hot temper!!!! and need sleep earlier....eat more fruits with victamins ...am still looking for the way that how to kick away the pressure, and trying to be more emotional stable....
i will post, when i found my hair is less lossing after i changed my life style...

I AM SO TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!!TIRED !!!!!!!! my heart tells me that. i cant feel any of sweet things.and i was powerless. i feel cold and hopeless, look outside the window, the stars are still there, they didt change, but me, the tears full of my face.........

really ?

I was trying to find a new room to move in, emm ~~
Recently, subang are too damn hot, i mean the weather XD. Long time no rain already, dont know why, i know maybe right now is not raining season, but, i still think it's wired, cuz by my count, already 2 weeks dont have even a bit rain. not only the human being, but all the animals and plants are pity also....God just give me some rain , thx!
Finanlly, i decided that i dont waiting for God save us, well, i will not going to stay here and Die `~:)
am moving out. yoyo !
Actually, stay here is not too bad, the owner treats us nice , and every Sat, she will take her maid come the house doing house keeping. ( cuz all of my housemates are male, sometimes the house will be little bit messy , i think ) anyway, my owner has no problem. if has to find any other reason, i think it's some ppl that stay in the house. Normally, when i found my food has be stolen in the refrigerator, i will be angry. lol, i dont even know who should i angry for, cuz nobody are gonna say " yeah ~~i eat your cake" or something. but i just dont like it, what happened to thoes ppl, eat other ppl's thing is equals to steal. well, maybe, when they see this they probably think am stingy, but what i've been trying to say is ( when u eat my thing, can you plz ask for my permission, cuz something maybe i dont wanna to be shared) If you ask me why, i could give a example.... last few days , it was my first anniversary, so Menmen bought me a black forestcake, cuz she said the cake is significant to us. but i recevied that cake in the morning, everybody knows that morning we shouldt eat too mcuh heavy things , so i ate a half onli , an other half i left in the refigerator, after that we hang out to somewhere.....after i back, it was 8pm already, i had a bit hungry, menmen said we could continue eat taht cake , when she opened my refigerator, she was shock, cuz there onli left a small pic , so , i was bo song lo...This is not onli cake , but also happened to my milk , Orange Juice, even the eggs i bought... they eat my thing , and somemore , one of the jerk said something to menmen, indecates her that dont take the parking space in my yard........ i also stay here gua ~why cant?????????????????????
Besides that, they were fine, so far!
Menmen said, if i find the good enviornment , i will spend more time at home but go out , so i can student , and save more money, even thought the rental maybe higher...Well, i dont know, hopefull i can. cuz i really need do some change about my attitudes of study and myself. sometime really hot temper, i keep wondering the man i become now,, is it really me , cuz before i never angry because of little things, and even something terrible happened i could just sit down and think about the solutions. but now .......menmen says is because of the weather , her mom said that the men used to stay in the air-con room, cant suddenly change to the room without air-con one, if not , he will become hot temper, i agree with that , but is there any sicentific explanination, i dont know , just put myslf into this experiment, and i will write in this blog in the future....
In front of me, there is a cake i bought last nite.. and now am going to enjoy my breakfast..

i dont know, but i believe

I joined the singing competition hold by Taylor's university music club, but i stopeddddd! outside the top 5.
The competition started at afternoon 4pm, we arrived there before that time, so we just waited there, the ppl from music club were coming later, they came after 4.30pm. i have nothing to say about that , just wordless... how "effective" they are!!! while later, the competition start, we didt know much about this competitin as well, what song should we prepare, how mang songs we need to prepare when come to the competition , and we can bring our own back ground music or not, everything for me just a blank. but i did prepare one song for the autition, it's a old chinese song, called (ni zen me she de wo nan guo), am the 4th one to sing , before me there was a very good singer from indunisia , jeffery's fren...i forgot his name , actually i dont think his performance was good , but voice still okay, not consider very good.. lolx , but somehow he entered the final top 5 :(
My singing was not so good , but i think as least should be no problem that i can get into the top 5. but what i did is i screwed up my whole performance by answnering the 2nd rounds question , ya ~`i thought thoes question were stupid. they ask me what is my muscie background, well, for this question is still okay.. but then the 2nd question and the 3th question , i really think they are dump ! i was singing ( ni shi wo de eye) by they asking me to show my power of singing. will , actually i can sing a lot of song with high key one, i know that, but i think that one represent my passion of singing, so i just sing... after that they asked me , " who is your eye" i was totally stun there like a wood, i really dot know how to answer la, i really hope i can answer ' my girl fren' , but i dont think that was a nice discription , cuz the situation in that song is to discrip tat man was blind.. i dont wnana to be blind la XD.. Okay, they didt pick up me , fine , but the worsest thing is, they pick the guy singing Gary Cao's ( shi jie wei yi de ni ) , that was totally unfair, not onli me think that way, but most of my frens , and my menmen also said that so. his nose voice too song , and his peonounceation was in clearn la ~they said , they pick him , cuz he is the member of the music club, that means they know each other. so .....is it fair???
Okay, some reason for i lose this competition is that i think am not confident enought , what i mean is , if deep inside i dont think theire english better than me, or i think we are going to competite the singing skills but not language , i will not affraid of anything, not afraid of answering their question, so that;s the problem i found on me. Yeah ~ive go throught alot of things, i shouldt be afraid of anything, expecially singsing, which i think i have talent on it. and i should be more confident, and shows that i proud of my singsing, but not afraid of the little question asked by the same ages of ppl... ya ~~i will be coming back, just next year, same month, same competition , just different Me!!!!!

late post..

i have two days did post already, haiz ~~
i went to taekwondo yester, and i got fall down, my knee now become the black color, kinda pain, and today my whole body is like after i have ran 1000miles...omg ! cant descrip tat feeling.
afternoon, i went to red-box with menmen togather, we thought we go there for practice, cuz am going to join the singing competition on friday which is 2molo, so it's kinda like we go chose the songs to fight with the competitors lolx~~after that we back and i was suggest to buy a whole ayamas chiken to eat..menmen agree with me, cuz we knew that carefour's ayamas were doing the process of redecoration, so we came to subang ss15 that one where naer by the cake sense( the bread shop) . here, has a joke wanna to record is down , haha ~~( all the different flavors of chiken were cooked and display in the cabinet, both menmen and me we like the black pepper one. The shap of the chiken is all opened up ~so it looks like a whole skin onli ( refer to the shew gei ) , carmen ask me to buy the whole one, but in fact that is the whole one. cuz it was totally opened up. i actually dont know what her was talkin about at that moment. haha ~~finally i found out.. see the shape of it (this is darkm just for giving an example).. menmen just thought that was just half of the chiken. so she asked me to buy the other half.. omg even the shpe dose look like a whole chiken one but ~~she never realized. what kind of chiken wil got 4 wings and 4 legs.. hahaahaahaha ~~thats the biggest joke i heard at least within this 3 days. ) end up, we just bought one la ~~cuz i noticed that , of course la ~am not stupid XD.
today, also some bad things happened to me la, sometimes i just donw know , why someppl need to be act like so lanci one. i dont think ppl with really respect u when u act like u are richer than them. somehow, no matter u are rich or poor, it dose matter to others also , so, acted like a asshole just made u become a compeletely asshole...so, just be modest and congressive plz ~! ppl will more like u then.
Tonite, when i was in Stevons house , menmen got the phone called by Queenie, omg, she said one of the monash gal has been raped in subang area. shock , and i felt so sorry for that innocent gal , and also , makes me realized more how important we should care about our safty.( hopefully, someday that victim can be walk out to the pain )
And , also, sorry again , menmen, sometimes i am too hot temper, ya ~~i notied that too.. and whatever bullshite i said, it dosent change my heart to u...thx for saying that to me , ya i agree, u are my family in here, malaysia...thx, love u .

Today, sux.....

moring got bcb test, but i screwed up, cuz me and menmen almost did sleep last nite, we were rushing for QM assignment. menmen didt go back cuz the way back to her house was bloack , and she did not no other ways to back her home , hehehe.~~~~ today's test just sux , i got some small pis of paper , which i thought i could use for my exam, but in the end, there were two damn teachers , somehow there were walking around when during the test. Moreover, the content of the test is hard, there were 6 essay questions and 6 MCQ, well , teacher wanted us to finished it within 28 mins( the last 3 mins was added by her) only herself realized tht time is not enought.. whatelse i still can say, just Sux!!!
After that, menmen said she fail, well, i think me too. i feel like i need study mroe but insdead of put my hopes on doing ''cheat cheat papers''...
we went to the polic station to pay her summon, this one is different , cuz she got the summon from the rode where could not part the car, but she did( even thought there were alots cars around)
we were suffering in find that plice station, the truth is , the summon only need to pay RM30. but we used a whole afternoon to find that place. By the way, menmen got apply the parking sticker for herself and also for my housemate Jia Hao. cuz she dose want to get summon any mroe. yea~~i knwo which is expensive, and wasted time to go there and pay , we just need to to more mroe other things.. like study ..maybe :P
at the nite, i went to gym , long time no take body compat, i felt kinda tired~~so need to go sleep now , 2molo still got BCP lecture, F**k off....! sorry , i should speak'F'.
hope menmen will be more luncky 2molo.

gliter !

Just know tat we are not going to take the hot spring tomorrow, kinda dejected. Anyway, i guess i need to kill that thoughts, because, i still haven't finish my assignment yet, and i need work out to the gym, just notic that, am getting fat every mins. lolx
Hmmmmmm......
Maybe we are going to the hot spring next week. nvm, the hot spring can wait me.
Since i was bored, so i start watching Louis Vuitton 2009 which was absolutly hot !!!!!! i show 4 dresses here. which i like the most. @.@

OMG!!! fabulous holy dress!
The first one, i chosen it , is because of the collar, it's all the way from the top till the ends. it is exaggerate, but it is real, which u can see the model's sholder clearnly. The big Les collar bring the confideence to any girl, makes you feel u are the elitist gal in the gang..you can wearing during the porm, u will become the prom queen...XD
Second one, the short coat , leather belt, with long boot. absolutly, a classic smart gal, a capable secretary, the little pink makes u look like not that sophisticate...lolx
3rd one, wow ~when first time i saw this one, it like i saw a ppl fallin in love, warm feeling, like the spring air full of the whole enviornment. it is a sweet that belongs to woman, but not a litte gal.
Last one, omg ! this one makes me think about Sarah Jessica Park. when a gal is weaing this dress, it's like , so what, i m the noble lady, and i deserve better things than other woman..wow~~~i like this sentence .
My 6 sence told me, when LV hire Marc to be their chief inspector of design, the whole world is gonna be change, so far, it proves i'm rite...haha ~i like his design, as same as i like Hyde's Dior..gamatee, Marc.

life made by little things

I finished my law assignment yesterday, but there are still two more within this month, QM & BCB, haiz~even thought we need the challenges for uni life , but dont you think sometime it just too much...?
During the shower, i watch my hair, omg , dont know since when i lost so much of my hair already, i feel like am going to become the hairless. BUT am not ready to become like that yet, emmmm, i have to take care of myself. sleep eailer, avoid the spicy foods, and even dont eat the fried things. okay ~hope that will be fine to me, i saw boonhua and eng sim they even lesser than me , dont know how they think about themselves.
friday no class, but i sleep till 11.30am in the morning , menmen come to wake me up, we when to face to face and had my lunch in there. after that , queenie, huisan , deyang came to find us, they are going to take hot spring on Sat , which is 2molo, ask if we wanna follow, emm ~we said see how it goes , hopefully i can finish my QM asisgnment today, cuz hot spring can make relax mah ~~recently very tension la , cant forcus on my study somemroe easy to get angry o.. lox( i know that o , menmen )
not am working out the the gym 4times for a week , i will become a "hot hunky guy" hahahhahahah~~~puke@@
oh ya ~~~last nite we went to subang airport, FLY??? no la ~~~they went to there for the good seafoods la , but i didt eat at all , cuz , i sacre of getting fat....and seafoods not good for my health, just ate some vge, vgi .....k~~. see ya guys on 2molo .

awareness!

Just back from gym, i was thinking a lot when i was runing on the machines... one day 24 hours, if i had 6 hours sleepint time, thne i use to wake 18 hours per day, the question is , what i did during thoes 18hours?
Breakfast+lunch+dinner, think ive spend 4 hours on that, cuz after the meal we usually talk with other ppl. chinese ppl call that "yum cha" Now i onli left 14hours per day.
Morning and evenning shower, i will take at least 1.30 hours on it. cuz i need totally clearn up myself , otherwies i will feel mysele dirty and lazy. By now i only left 12.30 hours.
Everyday, i walk to here and there, even if i went to the class it still by walking. that will take me at least 3hours per day , u dont believe me , u count and check out...so i only left 9.30 hours now.
Well, i have use sometime to acompanny with menmen, otherwise, she shall be get angry with me, that takes me another 4hours per day. now i got 5.30hours.
Talking to the phone, going to the toilet, remake the hair, facial clearning, that will take me 2hours. now i have 3.30 onli.
one day i have onli 3.30hours to myself , somehow , i need go to the class, gym, do assignments. that will take me at least 3hours per day.
Well, maybe i still got 30 mins for myself, too pity, i have to use that time come here and post blog......
See, how tired am i .

something bad something good....

today wast really a good day for me, simply because i got law assignment need due one wed this week, and i havet even read the question yet! okai ~ go read now.........
(12mins later) after the reading, still feel blur blue about it , how to write o, now menmen is sleeping bahind me in my bed, she asked me to wake her later 11.30pm, cuz she needs to back and get some sleep...haiz ~~~somehow i start thinking about the relationship between two ppl.
This is because today, we were in stevon house , that was a mistake actually, stevon said he wants to take shower after we had lunch to gather, then menmen , christina , and me we follow him back lo, i was thinking i can aviod from sunshine, lolx ~~i was lie down on his bed, menmen sits beside me, chris took the single seat sofa. i couldt remember how we talk until we changed the topic to the man and woman relationship, when the gals talkin about thoes kind of topic they will never stop de, started from chirs, then menmen, then chris.....during that, stevon got mention about lecture's time, but seems like we've been attracted by something, we just cant stop talk, even funny thing is i was fallin into sleep....haiz ~~~~:(
when i woke up, i saw both chris and manman they are sob sob, acutally seems i heard something , was chirs talk about her bf something, cuz they kept talkin , soon later it proved that what i heard is real. first time saw her cry that bad, menmen also sob sob. but somehow i use menmen's body to block me to see her face. because i really dont know how to handle when a gal is crying in front of me, the only thing i will do is just ask her, " dont cry la, u are going to be okay, u gotta be strong...." something, i know it's like some kind of bull shit. haiz ~~what can i do, okay, maybe i can do only one thing , dont make the one i love cry for me. i think just tryin to be better man is enough already, dont ever make your lover cry. ( of course,except some special reasons, as her dogs dead, she lost her job, her bags got spots.....) seems gals are easier to cry, but am sure when a person is crying, no matter guy or gal, there must be something real touch his or her heart.
TOO bad, i did't go my law lecture,after i got my plan i was telling myself to be a good student that will do all the good student should do. but now ~~im so regret. what can i do. okay ~~now am going to do my law assignment; 750words , and by the way my QM assignment due day is in coming next week , and i dont even start to study nither my QM nor fianncial management, wakaka ~~its calculation! hopefully i will go throught it..
Good thing is, i got my result of medical check uo already, the doctor said am fine with everything, but still need to do one more test after next week, thx God, u've been protecting me all the way from now on...Amen!
( all the best to chirs. we are always be your friend, and always will be there for you, currently and also in the future...)

shock...but still happy

Just saw something from internet, it's about the PR in malaysia. will, i cant have it i think, but i believe that's not the cancer of our love...our love is tough.
Father Alfred says something real touch my soul and now i share with you guys, i believe any problems are conquerble. so just do it start rite now , babe, future holds on our hands.

"happiness is a journey, not a destination''--Alfred D Souza.

Dance like no one is watching
Love like you've never been hurt
Sing like no one is listening
Work like you don't need the money
Live life every day as if it were your last.
跳舞吧，如同没有任何人注视你一样，
去爱吧，如同从来没有受过伤害一样，
唱歌吧，如同没有任何人聆听一样，
工作吧，如同不需要金钱一样，
活著吧，如同今日是末日一样。

First anniversary..

Today...our first anneriversary..i wrote this for u.....

I like the little happiness in the life, even thought they are just simple enough.

I like to watch you sleep without your notice, even thought I know I will critical you later about your easy falling to sleep..

I like to hold your hand and walk into the shopping mall, even thought sometimes the escalator is too narrow, somehow I still want to by your side.

I like to ask you to do something for me, even thought the things are so easy to do, to handle a tiny little thing, to clean up my table…

I like to listen to the complains about your friends and family, even thought I always said bored about hearing those topics, but I still want console your heart.

I like to ask you to wearing the different colors of your clothes, even thought you are good in black, but I still want to see your different side, because I believe that you are good in the others.

I like to discus with you about something non-sense, even thought I win every time eventually, but I know actually is you let me become the winner.

I like to spend the first sunshine in the morning and the last in the night, because that makes me realize I’ve spend a whole day with you, and I still want to be that way.

I like to drink the water every time you given, even thought it’s just a pure water, I still felt that are different, I like it, that sweet feeling go through my mouth into my heart.

I like to sit beside you and watching you’re driving in the car, even thought most of time we have no idea where to go, but I still feel like to be home when I was in a little space with you, so comfortable and satisfy.

You always say you love me so so so much, even thought I may not love you as deep as you love to me, but I still would like to say to you, babe, am falling to the deeper position each day, and I wish that falling will be forever……I have nothing to worry about, because as my wallpaper says “you won’t let me hit the ground, thanks for being around”

BABE, happy our 1st anniversary, i hope there will be a lots of anniversary that we will spend to gather, till the ends of my life...

oh shit ~~~! my mistakessssss

Can believe i forgot my mom's birthday, which is on 6th April, and last nite my dad send me a message, the contant's is like this ( your mom is waiting for you call, which you have promised her will make a birthday call this year, but you forget again , she maded me whole day already, and now u beeter going to fix it:) ) at the end of the text, he put the smile face there, oh dad!! u are such are funny person but i did call her last nite, previously the phone call was disconnect for awhile , i thought my moms get me angry, after that i called her again, and talk to her, my mom was keep saying someting like , i dont care about her something... whichs are not !! i love her, very much, and she was purposely saying that, cuz shes kind of bleam me la~its reasonable , i understand of coourse. soon later she started asking me about my life recently, the topic has totally change to arounding me and my life. haiz~~i think all the mother is like that pattern de ..guys, am i rite, ask u self?
menmen and me we went to the cinema watch the JackChen's the "the shinjuku incident" such a nice movie, after that , i have a question in my mind..dose anything wrong about thoes ppl who wants to get better life, maybe they used the wrong approach, but dose ment they deserve the pulishment as dead something, thats too much ....and one more thing i get from that movie, once ppl contact with the aginsters, will never gonna get out of it, in the ends hurts yourself onli. ( no matter how hard the life is, ppl still str8 forward and stand still.....)
2molo am going to medical check up in the morning at 8 something. hopefully am going to be fine. haha ~i didt eat anything since from the afternoon till now. you think i wanna lose my weight, no la ~~the doctor said that so .

another day ..haiz`~~

Firstly i would like to say,"God bless you, menmen! i hope u can do ur test and get the good result".......
I just did a bit research about the eye cream, last year i got one gift from davis and tharaton, which is THEFACESHOP's eye Essence, i never open the plastic untill now, the smell is too fregrant,for me that means it's not good, because i know the producer put too mang things to maks it have a good smell, lolx. i use google to find whats the materials made from, it;s made by the extraction of bamboo, well, which is not too bad, because i know it can moisturiz our skin and at the same time make our eye area look more brighter.. but one thing i scare, am afriad it will case for the white head around my eye area, even though it seems absorb very fast..nvm, if not good, i will stop... wanna cry now ~~~i wanna Aesop. but i have to save money start from now, over over budget already, dont know when i can have it ..aesop...i really sob sob sob :(
( dear..if my eyes are getting old, is because i dont have u....)


haiz ! my lovest Marc, who has design this fantastic bag,, i so wanna have it, i know am too greedy maybe, just let me dream for awhile la, who ask me over my budget lo , by the way still need to to huisan's bufday.. haiz, dont knwo where thoes money come from. maybe need to go do a parttime job( i mean both of us) , today i go see a doctor, she ask me fasting after Thur's luch and go have medical check up on Fri... haiz, have to keep myself hungry that long , dont know how to do. but at least i will know if i had anything wrong with my body...GOd bless me ..
Aagain!!! salute for my favored MARC JACOBS, the man who wearing the skirt,, hahahaha ~~to See this nice bag again it will cost $158. if i buy in here is rm500. cry~~~~~~again!!!

unknow

I didt post last nite, cuz i was too tired and falled to sleep..haiz. recently, a lot of things to do, lot of things need to do, lot of things havet do yet. LAW assignment, BCB assignment, anniversary, frens bufday, medical check up...thoes are really drives me crazy. But, on the other hand, it made me become normal, last period, my lifestyle was abnormal, i wake at nite and sleepy in the morning, and couldt sleep at all, hair falls very heavy, and got pimples somemore. menmen said i had presure myself too much, well, i dont know, not so sure about that, just think am stil ok, but why am i behaved like that, i really have no idea at all.....
this morning, i wake up by her undging of my shoulder, i was scare at that moment cuz i was sleeping and kept my face turn to the wall side. but anyway thx for waking me up, so that i can change my life style , otherwise i slept that eariler last nite will become another wasted.. she said later will take me to go medical check up( recently , my somatch are not feeling good, easy too hungry and feeling full once i eat a little bit of food.) hopefull, am okay, cuz i dont wanna get any problem on myself yet, i have a lot of dreams that i havet reach yet. anyway, i think god will bless me and loves me , Amen!~
well, this is all i want to say this morning, will post late at night. see ya

movie day.

today,carmen and me we went to sunway to watch the movie Fast&Furious which we have been waiting for so long already, 2 or 3 days ago , we've started waiting, but neither the seat not nice nor the show was too nite ( cuz menmen cannot back too late) .however, it was the nice movie i think as if i compare with those"watch man" " dragon ball".....lolx
But, the story like is quite boring, basically, it's talking about Dom(vin diesel) gets the revange of the car gambling gang, because his girl fren has been killed by one of them. so he joined the car gambling, thus, we can see a lots of nice shiny sport cars from the movie, wow @.@.....Paul walker was a cop in that movie, pretend one of the car gambler..but wanna to find out and catch the boss of the criminal team..
kkk~~~cut the crap ! let's shows the car!!!! and listen wat they are saying about this fantacy movie XD

meaningful day

Carmen 今天12点过才来找我， 还好我在睡觉，昨天她说要拿车去做，还以为又不能吃早餐了。 但是，我直接睡到12点， 还能怪谁呢？她来后我才去冲凉， 然后去吃饭。哇！！今天吃了nasi lemak. 去14区吃的， 那档生意好的有点离谱， 等了老半天都没有位置。我叫menmen打包，我们走人！！呵呵~~她很高兴,because she said long time no Dabao already. 我们回来后,发现catherine 带工人在打扫房间. 很扫兴啦, 没有位置吃东西, 还好本人聪明, 我叫menmen去H20(A shop where got sale different DIY drinks) 吃, 按道理说,拜6他们开到6点多吧. 果然到了那里还开着. 点了水, 我们坐了下来享受我们的美味大餐! 很多人抢着买的东西就是不一样. 这个nasilemak就是好吃,可惜,我没有take pic...:(　可是还是很开心哦，因为menmen吃了我的一块羊肉（她不吃羊肉的）lol,,,wow!!!
回到家里,menmen 整理起我的衣服来, 我在上网看东西. 渐渐的听到后面没有声音了, 我回头看见她很sleepy的样子.呵呵 : )　她说我房间很让她想睡，说完就倒在我的衣服上，好懒哦！哈哈～～，　这么懒的pose，还叫我拿camera照她．而且，还叫我也睡在上面他照我．后来，她说这些照片很好看．．．我晕了＠＠．不过嘛，我很喜欢那个arabia pose．　哈哈～～～～～不敢相信是她哦.( menmen insisted i took down the pictures to prevent obscenity!, cuz she envy my ass-.-)

晚上，我们和Phang他们一起去了，sunway pyrimid，本来要去看fast&furious的，但是天忽然下好大的雨，每个人都去了sunway躲雨，看戏，我们去的时候都没有票了．哎呀！他们要去吃sushiking，我怕肥啦，就同Menmen走街．然后我收到stevon 的sms他说叫我们回家，before11.34pm . 我很想知道怎么回事，但是他说的不清不楚地，　算了．但是我还是听他的建议拉，明天再问他吧．men很怕，我叫他早回．早点回也安全啊！她说叫我sunday go medical check up , but i think sunday most shop will close , so just push to monday lo.
其实今天蛮有意义的，因为，我们知道了我们的目标．对吗？beee, our "FM" ?
okay , guys , this is my first chinese post, will see u guys 2morrow. good nite , ah beee, good nite all......

untitled...

unbelievable, today, i went to sing-k again, ahah ~~with phang, his brother, jefreey and carmen togather, all of us were performance quite good lo. we sing a lot of song, in the ends, 4 of guys, we sing westlife's song togather, omg ! i thing very nice lo, next time i will still go with them all.
I paid my rental already, this month is RM393. 33 is the electronic bill, actually i felt kinda bo song lo, i think i didt use much of the electronic, and water compared with others, and my rental is nearly 400 lo , and it's no air-con, i think i will find the better place to stay next time, when everything is going okay.
I just back form "old tast" copi dian, we were having the conversation about the ghost there, thats so terrified me lo,i think carmen more scared than me, expecially when phang said somet true stories, but somehow i like it.
carmens gone just now, cuz we just had fight. initially i said something about her, and she return me some words which hurts my feelings, so i just kept silent, but i just didt send her away, after that she go bought a water for me, that i appreciated.
i really dont understand why, why everytime we had fight so easily. Seems the reasons are too small, but we were still fighting for them. is it worth? if we like that, why do we have to be to gather? sometimes i just felt so hopeless, in here, nobody will understand me, nobody really cared about me, if u did ? is the way i needed ? i did not feel like to be home, i dont have thoes feelings, or perhaps u couldt give me one.
Maybe, i had my Pride and you had your Prejudice......

movie & my mind ...

today 7 of us went to red-box, have sing-k. we just skiped the F&i block lecture, lolx~did not intention. Anyway, today is not bad, cuz we sing since 1pm untill 5something, so long already, we got order a lot of songs, Princeses and Rachel were fresh singer in our group :) . one thing needs to be mentioned, Princeses can sing very good o, her cantonnes songs are so nice, almost like the original one. after that, we back, because i said i dont wanan sleep so earlier, so menmen and me we went to suway pyrimid.....
today's dinner was in MR tapanyaki. actually not too bad, but just waited too long and that made us not feel so good. Oh ya, we got watch the movie "knowing" by Nicholas Cage, i always like his movie. this one also didt disapointed me as well. this story is talking about the prophetical ppl, in the end of the show, the whole world has been distoried by the big big solar flares, it burned everything on the earth, killed everyone except some ppl been chosen by the aliens, because they saved them from the earth to the other planet ( sounds like crazy XD) but it's nice...ya ~nic's little son is one of the lucky person. during the show my neck did not feel so good, menmen went out bought me a bot of water, so touch~~~~@@. thx my ah beee.
2mole need to get the informations about medical check from carmens cousin sis, kelly..cuz i wanna do, recently felt not good with my intestines and stomach, hopefully will be fine, hopefully both of us are gonna be okay !!!

The f&i test..

we had Finance & Investment test today, as i said i did not do revision at all, thus i put all my hopes on a piece of paper. the lecturer allowed us to bring the piece of paper to the exam, which can be written on the formulars and the model questions about the exam. But....unfortunately, i dont even have "cheat sheet" XD. Here, i want to say thx to Huisan and Chris. they helped menmen and me to sloved the problems, we were doing the question very fast. After that, chirs, stevon, menmen and me we went to asian cafe to take some foods as our dinner. while chirs's bf came to fetch her back.
need mention something, tomorrow i need go to the international office to find those malay pig...(sorry, but i hate them) to do my things, both the medical insurance card and the student visa. which has been the trouble for me last semester. so, plz dont forget....
okay, my stomach does not feel so well, need to do the medical check up for it, hopefully , i will be fine....
very tired , but need to do the law tutorial questions before get into the bed....:(

31=baskin robins = new month payments

today my finance & investmet class cancled becuz of the yesterdays block lecture. so , just hang out with ppl. we went to subang parade, a shoping mall, where full of the shopping goods and things to eat. as this month has 31 days, so we went to baskin robins to eat ice-cream there.( 31%discount) ah beee, chris and me we shared one print of ice-cream, i picked the mint flavor mixed with menmen's starberry cheese cakeboth of them like it , whatever, i like my mint chocolate. haha ~~~also , we went to parkson ...as usual ~~~XD. i saw two shophotics, chris and menyee, walao ! finally i belived that chris is one of the incurable shophotic, haha she wants to buy almost anything she likes.And one thing i happy with is that my ah beee and me, we already keep our record ( 3weeks didt buy any shopping goods) keep it up ~beee. i know we have financial problem rite now ,but i hope we can go trought it togather by holding each other's hands....expecial in the coming times new payments of this month, rental, gym and so on...@@
OMG!!!! 2molo got test about F&i , havet go study yet, guess what? i just got note from huisan and stevon.. brilliant! :P. okay, all the best for all of us about 2morrow's test...
looked back at my bed, menmen is sleeping, she seems too tired :P. hopefully she can get a good rest and start her revision later.
All rite!!! see ya tomorrow... good nite :)

red-box....

today had bcb( buyer and consumer behaviour) test, i just got revise a bit for the test, but i still go face it, anyway , the test was not so difficult, will see the result next week. Afternoon, my housemate jeffery, carmen and me, we went to red-box to sing karaok, i sing many new songs this time, and carmen said jeffery singing is nice, bit 吃醋about it. lolx ~~am just too care about ur point of view. but waht carmen says are rite, i need the improvement about my singing skill too( maybe someday, i will become a super star) XDXDXD...after that, we had dinner, the buffet in red-box, there were many yummy foods, ( why am i mention about food everytime ?) now am regret about i ate too much of suchi at there. anyhow, i found that dophine's voice are too nice. but pity i cant sing that way. nvm , i am a man mah ~~gals like that onli.
i think i need more exercise insdead of eat eat eat.....ok ,i write something put on my wall to remind me to keep fit and encourage me !!!

omg~~new babe was born!!

MR'm felt so sorry about his ex-blog , which i forgot his password... my dearest blog....i have to apologize to u, hope u will not bleam me, and for sure, this is your new brother here, lolx . are u happy with it, and this time i promise to u, i wont lost my password anymore, if not, i let u kick my ass, ok ?? haha ~~~
today is sunday, i went to 3k to play badminton with zhi ping and his brother zhi song, walao ~~till now i onli know how terrible my badminton skill is, of course i did play with them, i only ask carmen to play with me, i thought i can bully her,, lolx. but after 2 round, i realized gals in malaysia, baeminton is not that noob also...even carmen, i almost used all my attention play with her. eventually, i didt loss , but also didt win.... sux is it ? Whatever, carmen and me we found some new place to eat, haha~it located downstairs of the badminton court, where provided the yummy food and also the whole enviornment are good with chatting or doing assignment etc,,, hehe ~that means , next time when McD's getting crowed, we can have one more option lo ~~~so wonderful, wow. carmen even asked me go there eat again on tomorrow, but i said got test la, see how it gose lo....
anyway, today is normal, but also abnormal for me, cuz my new babe blog was born, we need some vibration to celebrate his birthday...XD